Like every new mom, I’m sure … I have a hate love hate relationship with my body. Ok, there are those moms that bounced back right away or those moms that just LOVE their tiger stripes but I do feel like many of us, bounce between “I am proud of my body and WHAT IN THE SAM HELL IS THIS ROLL!?!?” Lol. I am lucky … I’m naturally tiny with some curves and I do know… that I am NOT fat … but does that mean I LOVE my post baby at37-year-old body?? Not all the time … sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t … which I think is pretty normal for the most part.
After having Leo and I thought I would be going to the gym like CRAZY to try and get my pre-baby body back and the truth is, I haven’t been. I know I’ve written a few “get fit” blogs in the last year … but I feel like I have to admit to you guys … I’m yo-yoing and I just can’t get into the groove!!! Lately, I’ve been eating like crap and indulging in Rosé and I honestly … don’t care! LOL, I have been so focused on my state of mind and renewing a sense of “quality of life” … that I just have put “working out” on the back burner.
Some days I’m like “Damn I look good” and other days I look in the mirror and think to myself “WTF!! What happened to my body and where did this flabby tummy come from?!” … but do you want to know the best part about this?? This is the FIRST time in a LONG TIME that I have been able to just take it easy and not really care and oddly enough I’m BEYOND happy about it. I’m happy and proud of my body and what it’s been through over the last couple of years … our bodies are pretty freakin amazing and I think we’re too hard on ourselves!!
It’s funny how your mindset and confidence change when you just accept how you look in the mirror … the only person who truly cares about your body and the way it looks and feels is YOU! And if you’re at peace with how things are, it’ll feel like a weight has been lifted from your shoulders (even though there might be a lil more under them … LOL!!) … you’ll laugh a little more, you’ll cannonball into that pool like nobody’s business and you’ll eat those chips with your fourth glass of rosé!!! Sometimes it’s important to just “let go” … and allow yourself to enjoy the little things. Sure, balance is key and you don’t want to OVER indulge all of the time but I think it’s incredible to let your crazy expectations go once in a while and just be YOU.
So hey, while my body isn’t what I feel like is “perfect” or the way it “should be” I’m pretty damn happy about it and I’m letting go of any and ALL pressure over it this summer. I’m going to kick back and allow myself to get some quality R&R, spend as much time outside with Leo, Justin and Nacho and not give a damn about what I look like doing it.
And that’s why I’m not going to the gym right now. Bottoms up, ladies and gents. LOL!